Some Thoughts

Just some random thoughts that have been going through my head today. I had mentioned to someone about the surgery and in conversation I said...'I want to get my sexy body back'. For anyone who knows me knows that is completely not ME. I do not consider myself a self absorbed, vain or conceded person by any means. The reply back was...Well women do place more emphasis on appearance than men. Ok I will give you that..but I don't think I fall in that category. Then the pondering comment was made...'Sexy is not physical appearance at all'

I totally agree with that...so I have been thinking.

I am very comfortable in my own skin. I do not wear make-up, my hair is in a ponytail most of the time, I love my jeans & t-shirt. I don't like to judge people by their appearance, so don't judge me that way either. I am not saying I am the most beautiful person on the inside, but I do feel close to it. This has NOTHING to do with the way I see myself, yeah sometime I do feel like people look at me and judge, but really I don't judge them, but we all know how shallow that is. This all has to do with how comfortable you are with yourself. How do you act around a good looking guy? The same as the unattractive ones. When other ladies I know see a good looking guy, they oogle & google and can not even talk to him, not me. I know about their wife, kids, and can even make them laugh. Does that make me a bad person? I did learn a long time ago there is a difference between being conceded & self confidence, it is a fine line but I think I stay on the self confidence side. I do not like fake people. Really, if you cant be honest with yourself how can you be honest with me?? I can not be who I am with out all the people around me who I have opened my life to. At home & work. I learn from all of them.

I guess what I want to put out there is don't be misguided for the reasons I want to have the surgery, it is not physical at all. I know who I am, and I LOVE who am. I feel I am a very open person, and easy to get alone with. Something to ponder I guess. DO you really love yourself? Are you happy with who and where you are?? I know I am.

XOXO