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I was not sure what to title this.

I has been a while since I have blogged, and it is NOT for lack of thoughts, but for lack to time!

I have been so run down, just getting over a pretty bad sinus infection, left work and had a fever, but you gotta love a Z-Pack!! Once you are down with something like that, it is hard to get over it. Or more so get your energy back up.

The whole Texas Ranger thing is just AWESOME!!! Logan is really into the games, and he HATES the New York Yankees, it is funny, on the radio tonight, you could hear them chanting...."Yankees Suck...Yankees Suck", so MY son verbally agrees by saying....'Yeah the Yankees do suck!!'. I of course found more humor in it than Ray did.

Top of the 7th and the Rangers are ahead, 5-1 !!

This is really cool for me, see when I was growing up one summer, my dad had season tickets to the Rangers in the old stadium. I loved that summer more than anything, the time I spent with my dad, was the best! We loved our baseball. My favorites at that time...Pete O'Brien, Buddy Bell, Bucky Dent, Jim Sunberg....I am sure not too many of you remember those names. I almost have goosebumps, knowing (as Eric Nadel put it) the Rangers are 3 innings from the WORLD SERIES, first time in Franchise History!! I have been lucky enough to have kiddo who loves the game as much and I do. I am glad we did get to go to the ALDS against the Tampa Bay Rays, although we lost, it was great to be able to take Logan to that. I called my dad on the way to our seats, to tell Daddy about going to the game, and I got a little teary eyed, I am not sure why...maybe it was because I was glad to be there, or maybe it was because I was so glad to be sharing something with my son that was such a great part of my childhood with my dad! I love you daddy!!!

Bottom of the 7th 5-1!!!!!

The Reason.......

My Reason!

This is my reason for doing what I do! My boy! My little man.

I had this picture, and just wanted to share.

I can not tell anyone how proud of him I am! He made the A/B Honor roll! his lowest grade was an 86 in Reading, but ya know, he is doing really great and I could not be happier.

Relaxing?

How do you relax?

I guess I need so tips from others, I am learning I don't know how to do it.

Work has been insanely crazy, I am one of those that I don't feel like i bring it home, but the exhaustion you cant leave behind, then it flows over into your personal life.

This is going to be a wonderfully beautiful weekend. Maybe I will just go for walk at some point and see if that helps.

Full Time Job

How many full time jobs do you have?



Are you a spouse? An Employee? Parent?



I work an 8-5 job, but with my commute I get on the train at 6:50am and get back to the station between 5-5:20pm. Before work everyday, I have to get myself ready, and get Logan up, dressed, fed, and take him to daycare. Then after work, pick him up, get home, homework, dinner, bath then bed! And a few nights a week we have martial arts, and what ever else may come up. Now dont get me wrong Ray is there to help, but at the same time I take good care of him too! So my day starts at 4:00am, and ends sometime around 9:00ish.

I am sure lots of you who are reading this go through the same thing, and even have more kids that you take care of, and I could not image that!!! One drains me!

Now the job...ok I work at a financial institution, so right now any one who knows the industry knows how stressfull it can be...but I am there everyday as I need to be, and can be contacted 24/7. Even the 2 weeks I was out on jury duty, at breaks and lunches I was emailing and putting out fires. Now I am not trying to say I am super woman...others of you do this as well.

When do you get a day off...well off from work, when the kid is sick..then you are taking care of a sick kid, and probably dealing with work stuff...so not a day off. What about when you have a 'holiday' form work...oh wait, kids are probably off that day too...SOOOOO.....you schedule a day off, but when and how do you do that for convenience of everyone. Then you take the kid to school, and are expected to pick them up ...so there goes your day, you are on a schedule. What about a weekend????

Who gets nights and weekends off from being a parent??? What do you do with that time? That is right you clean your house and take care of things that you always have to put off for NO TIME, well when it is yours to take care of. Logan was away for 6 days over the summer, I was insane missing him...but I guess if they are a dime a dozen. What does it matter.

In my opinion...if YOU are not able to take care of your kids....why not do some thing about it.

Babies are a blessing for many reasons and only God knows why they are here...but sometime I do question in my head the WHY????

He knows what he is doing, I am not doubiting that....but HELL if you have been blessed....pull your head out of your JOHN BROWN HIND PARTS and be a freaking parent.

September Update

I don't' think I blogged at all in August did I? Well lots has been going on, I spend about 2 weeks on a Jury it was cool. A long story, but a neat experience. I am glad I got to do it, but not upset that I have a 24 month reprieve from it. Meet some neat people, had a great judge, although the cases ended in mistrial but it would have been that way anyways, since we needed 10 of 12 to agree on all the charges, but we would not have had that, we had 3 of us who firmly supported the defense.

So I missed taking Logan to school the first day of school that was very sad for me. He was excited to go to Westridge, so I don't think he was phased at all...I guess he is growing up and I am not sure I am ready for this.

Here are my kids on the first day of school. Logan had to have his picture taken with Shadoe.

So we have made it almost to the end of September, and no major issues. Logan's grades are SUPER, on his progress report he had a 95 in Reading, 98 in Math, & 99 in Writing...He hates writing more than you can image but he is doing really good. Although doing his spelling contract every week is somewhat of a fight. So as long as we can make it to the first report card, keeping those grades up, he will get getting an AWESOME GRADE Stripe at TKD.

Speaking of which, Logan will hopefully be testing for his Brown Belt in November. WE are so excited for this. I am keeping my fingers crossed that he shows the leadership skills and qualities needed to advance to this level.

As far as everything else, it has been hectic for a while, but it will all come out in the wash...one way or another!

Independence Day? For me it is!!!!

Saturday evening...Logan in bed, Ray playing video games, as for me....chillaxin to the fullest extent I can...some Whiskey & Ol'Country Music. I am having a nice evening and that is all that matters.

See this what i figure...Last time i checked I am an adult, married woman, mother of a wonderful, well behaved son...and for those who have issue with this or take issue with what i do...I BELIEVE THAT IS YOUR ISSUE!!

The last few months have really stressful, and i have been going and going...getting lots of $hit from all ends. And i have just let it go..but the last few weeks i have had time to look at things in retrospect, from being removed from my usual routine, and i have decided that i have lost me...and that is not good for the husband or the kid.

I am me, and I realized that is who everyone loves...not who people want me to be. I have a mind and a mouth, a very big mouth and i know how to use it and i do. i love my family.

The decisions for our son are ours...

to be honest as i am in my blogs, i am going to stop now!!!

15 More Days!

I have been away from the computer for so LONG!!!! Well not the computer but just blogging. I have had good intentions, but good intentions do not type this stuff for you.

I can not believe in 15 more days school will be on again. I feel kinda bad as we have not done anything majorly fun with Logan this summer. He has gotten to do all kinds of fun stuff, there was his week long vacation at the condo at Canyon Lake - Thanks Nana, Papa, Aunt Barbara, Uncle Jesse, and Jared, as well as all the other extended family that come up. He got to go swimming, play at the rec center, played miniature golf, and most importantly got a big bump on his head from a fight whit a skee-ball machine that he ultimately lost, then has stated claiming it 'took some of my memories away' (my little drama king). He has spent the entire summer at Nana's they have had some wonderful time together. He has spent time at Chele's house with her and her kiddos. He just loves them!

Then Saddle Ridge Ranch! Vacation Bible School at Shady Oaks Baptist Church. It was great. He was able to attend last year, but was a year too young for Music Camp. But this year - Katy Bar The Door!! They VBS was from 9-12 then music camp from 12-3, these kids had a long hard week. Not only did they learn all the finer things about Jesus & God, and the Cowboys, they learned the word, and movements for 7 songs! These were not easy either. We sang SRR song for a week, every time we were in the car. I even caught myself singing them on the train, and at work. The staff at Shady Oaks is AWESOME! They work so hard to make it right for these kids. They had record breaking numbers this year, the last night when they have the Family Dinner and the kids put on the skit, it felt like standing room only. Logan had so much fun, got to spend time with some great people, and be closer to God! Now he is looking forward to going away to church camp next year...big step for mom as well...but we will see. If he is grown enough, I am all for it.

We have been swimming at Aunt Tina's apartment at least once a week, she is usually our standing Thursday night date. With just a few more days until school starts, he is going to get to spend one day with Cousin Jared. Jared graduated this year, and is talking about the military. Logan will miss his so much, but it will be a great family vacation to take a stroll to where he will be at boot for graduation.

August came to quick, and came in with some sad news. On Wednesday Aug 4th, we lost Kota. She was our solid black German Shepherd, she was 8 yrs old. Little Sissy had a hard summer, she has always been down in her hips, and with age that does not get any better, she seemed to have lots more weight than usual this summer, and she was not a friend of the heat. Lots of things stacked against her. Logan was really sad, as we all were. The dogs, all except Shyanne, were here before we were blessed with him, so he really grew up with them. He knows that 'the ghost thing' (her spirit) left her body and is in Heaven with Dallas.

I am lucky that I will be off on Monday to spend an extra day with my boy, then on the 19th we will be hanging out all day. I have Jury Duty on the 20th, first time ever to be called. So we will see how it goes. The Friday before school starts, well I get picked or not??? The weekend before school starts we have a possible over-night event at TKD, a baby shower, and a birthday party. So the summer will end just as busy as it started. But then again that is what we do!!!

Some how I have spent about 45 minutes blogging, hopefully it won't bore anyone to death! Now I got to start getting ready for church. We are going to go visit Lamar Baptist Church today, it is close and we know some people who go there. They have a great kids program, and children's church. Keeping an open mind for what this will bring!